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it feels really unfair to lose another pet not even a full three months after the last one. but i think i'll be okay. at least i knew it was coming.
#it doesn't make it hurt that much less#but so far i'm doing pretty okay.#as okay as i can at least#i think i'm glad i'm at a petsitting job though.#it gives me time to process before i have to go back to a house without her in it#honestly i think i'm more angry than i am sad#i'm sad too obviously but i just.#ugh.#i won't get into it here
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Reading loz/lu fics and it's just so interesting how wide the spectrum is of their personalities.
Sometimes it's got an in universe reason (different past (usually gender or species change), recent or ongoing traumatic events, a spectacularly bad first meeting), but sometimes (often) the characters are just... Weirdly angsty or peppy, there's no in between!
And I'm beginning to think less people have played more than one game than I thought XD.
Not that it's anyone's fault! One game is more than enough to be part of it all, and loz is exclusive to Nintendo consoles - and all the older stuff is frustratingly hard to get hold of. Heck, I'm still looking for wind waker, and that was really popular! And then you have to play it! They're not small games!!
But could people writing wild please ease off just a tiiiiiny bit so he can be a semi functional member of society pretty please XD? He's just as much a polite boy as any other member of the chain! He won't even run in shops! He can't attack npcs! He talks to every single person he's ever seen and remembers every single name. Yes, he's three quarters woodland creature with a hefty amount of trauma but he's also a fashionista who managed to avoid accidentally taking sides in a mayoral election and that's not easy!
#I have some actual gripes but that's just me being pedantic about something I know a lot about#loz#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#loz link#loz botw#loz totk#the legend of zelda#totk link#lu wild#Okay but please stop making his teleportation a point of interest to the chain they ALL can warp it's not even slightly special#And the slate/pad doesn't hold any items I'm begging you that's just fanon it's never been canon or been implied to be#Travelling across hyrule (on horseback) is about a week and a half following the paths at a walk. Rito to lurelin. It's not weeks on foot t#Hyrule Castle!!#This isn't a problem but like. Let link be petty brats to civilians occasionally. It's enrichment. They all have beef with some rando.#They're all extremely polite and let people get away with more than they maybe should but like. Adults starting smth with a 16yo.#Also wild has serious beef with ganon why does everyone write him so chill. Like botw sure but totk?? Absolutely not.#'wah my home is in ruins it's all my fault' it's been like that for yonks no one's even mad and hello?? Miles on miles on untouched#Landscapes?? Millenia of ruins indistinguishable from the recent stuff?? Link literally died he could not have done any more#How anyone can play botw/totk and not be BLISTERINGLY proud of hyrule I don't know#Okay but why does everyone (particularly legend omg) always bitterly blame hylia like loz has a dozen odd deities and hylia is the ONE who#Got cursed right alongside link. It's just... Idk but it seems like such a culturally Christian thing. All the focus on one who then gets#Blamed for everything in life going wrong. Not even Christian but specifically American Catholic. I don't know.#Hylia is the one deity we can pretty safely assume is neither omnipotent or omniscient lmao#In every time she has a voice (botk/ss) she pretty clearly mucks up or gets tricked and has regrets#In ss when she was zelda she hated every second of leading link around and even then it all hinged on link being completely willing!!#And then she got kidnapped anyway!#In totk (spoilers) she loses contact with one of her statues and asks link to check it out. Another statue gets POSESSED by ol triangle hea#And again link has to figure out the problem. Like even in her divine form she is so far from all knowing and all doing.#It's a lot of conflating with the concept of fate maybe?
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guys we need to actually stop involving pidge in romantic klance situations
#WHAT I MEAN IS. like#i see wayyy too often pidge being the witness of random klance antics or being depicted as interested in klance's relationship a lot??#idk how to describe it i never see any of the other teammates being the punchline for klance jokes more than pidge#and im not saying that klance jokes with pidge involvement is inherently bad but i have so many examples of this being taken weirdly#like i remember this one comic i saw by this pretty popular artist (at least back in peak vld fandom) where keith and lance are having#a slow dancing moment in one of their rooms and at the very end it's revealed that pidge was watching through the vents and recording the#whole thing.#and there's this other art i see frequently on pinterest where it's implied that klance are doing the dirty and pidge is in their room#having to listen to it#and just today i received a message asking me to draw keith carrying lance bridal style as pidge watches in the background#...DOES ANYONE UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING#do i sound insane#I'm just saying that pidge is not this interested in klance. at least to the degree the fandom makes them out to be#and sometimes it's just plain weird okay??? okay#haha if u read this far hello 😭#klancedaytalks
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#dan and phil#weed#besties i am so high rn i am losing it#i took like one too many bong hits#started playing flight rising on the desktop computer bc it loads so much faster than my chromebook#opened youtube to have something on the second monitor#found dan and phil's fuckin lofi album???#lost my absolute shit about it#went to post about it from tumblr mobile but wanted to make this meme to do it justice so pulled up a meme editor on my desktop#(the meme editor had so many advanced text options since when have meme editors come this far??)#anyway made the meme realized my phone is at super low battery so decided to just log on to tumblr to post it directly from the desktop#even though i'm nearly exclusively a mobile user now and have been for years#so i have to log in to tumblr and now i'm experiencing making a post from the desktop site while still pretty blitzed#is it firefox that allows me to edit the tags after i've typed them or is that a desktop thing now#oh shit do i have any extensions on#depending on what imported from chrome when i changed my browser like six months ago this may be some sort of extension#whatever it is im okay with it this is great#i'm having such a good time right now genuinely#also watched chappell roan's hot to go music video for the first time during an interlude in the whole meme making process#there is currently a restoration video playing in the other tab that's been going for 10 minutes while i've been making this post#this is me living my best life honestly#i need at least one person to acknowledge the journey of tags on this post if only so i know I'm not alone in knowing my experience
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my brain rebels against me by shoving several incongruous fandoms into my face repeatedly with zero breathing room. and then looping them before i can actually draw anything.
awww iswm... i should... oh, tsp? nice, comfort zone... dp? sick, haven't seen danny phantom in a while. nice change of—disco elysium? sure! man that game was packed and—rdr2? oh. neat! didn't think that one would—undertale?? is it a video game thing, or—PHANTOM OF??? THE OPERA??? WHAT???
#ney's idle chatter (random textposts)#*laying face-down on the floor like i was trampled by wildebeest*#there's so many of them at this point that it actually circles back around to art block#i don't. i don't know what to do#and don't even get me sTARTED ON HIVE STUFF OKAY#it's our thing so i don't think it counts as a fandom but#my god#i'm also pretty consistently hitting a point where the stuff i want to make for a fandom is#far outside my skill level#which... yikes that stings#progress is progress and all that but man. still stings.
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some fucking idiot: when we say "magneto was right" we're saying he's right about society and shit not supporting his terrorist actions
me: don't lump in with your cowardly ass i'm in full throated support of his terrorism. sentinels, purifiers, the mardies etc are all real and exist and want mutants dead and literally no one gives a single shit. they'd rather pass the mutant registration act and make "scaly lives matter" jokes on twitter then help stop the genocide of mutants. it's a good thing actually he's blowing shit up and he should do more of it actually.
#xmen 97#'his politics are good but i don't condone his plan to kill everyone on earth' my brother in dormammu--#the earth is FULL OF UNKILLABLE SUPER ROBOTS WHO WANT TO ERADICATE HIS ENTIRE SPECIES AND ENSLAVE A FEW FOR A WORK FORCE FOR HUMANS#THEY JUST SENT AN ELDRITCH ROBOT SHAPED NUKE TO DESTROY THE BIGGEST MUTANT POPULATION AND ONLY SAFE HAVEN !!!!!!#WHAT PLAN DO YOU HAVE FOR THE BASTION ISSUE???? OR DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT WHOLE 'VIOLENCE ISN'T THE ANSWER' SHIT APPLIES#WHEN THE OTHER GUY IS SO TICKLED WITH HIS WORK COMMITTING A GENOCIDE HE'S PLAYING FUCKING PURPLE PEOPLE EATER ON AND TALKING ABOUT MEMOS#LOOK FOR THE DIPSHITS IN THE BACK-- DOCTOR FUCKING DOOM EVEN CALLED IT A WAR CRIME AND TOLD BASTION TO WATCH HIS BACK#WHEN DOCTOR DOOM THINKS YOU SUCK SHIT YOU'RE PRETTY VILE#BUT NO LET'S FUCKING TALK IT OUT#LET'S JUST ASK REAL NICE FOR THE UN TO GIVE MORE AID EVEN THO THEY'RE ACTIVELY PULLING OUT AND CLEARLY NOT INTERESTED IN GETTING INVOLVED!!#OR HOW ABOUT THE AVENGERS!!!!! OH WAIT!!! CAP WOULD ONLY WORK WITHIN THE BOUNDS OF US LAW AND INTEREST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#SENTINELS ARE REAL AND IN THE FUTURES OF RACHEL AND BISHOP MUTANTS ARE IN FUCKING CONCENTRATION CAMPS#BUT NO OKAY MAGNETO'S GONE TOO FAR OKAY I GET IT#i feel like i'm on crazy pills are before FOR REAL RIGHT NOW?!??!!!
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hey
#so i've been dealing with some irl stuff recently#nothing too bad. it was just really frustrating and exhausting for me. and really putting a damper on my mood and my art#and i'm sorry if i've been acting a little weird or not saying too much or anything#or if i've been kinda inactive for the past few days#but i'll be okay!#i just wanted to let you guys know what's been kinda going on#i'm slowly working on something really sweet involving Hugo and Noa. so that's been making me feel better#i need something happy and soft between them lol#also! I've been playing The Quarry recently!#the writing is kinda stupid and almost all of the characters act like they don't have a brain. but that's what makes it so fun!#and i'm pretty sure the devs did that intentionally. to make it seem more like a campy monster flick#i'm really enjoying it so far! the werewolves are really cool!#also it's really funny to me how they just pop like balloons whenever they're transforming#i thought it was gonna be a slow transformation. but no. their skin just immediately explodes off#and then they somehow get it all back when they turn back into humans? idk how that works but it's pretty rad#also also! the thing with the tarot cards is really cool!#i missed a lot in the beginning because i didn't know what i was looking for#and the fortune teller lady in between chapters kept getting mad at me for not finding any#but i eventually started to get it! when the game decided to really put one in my face in chapter 3 lol#and the thing with the tarot cards representing the different characters in the game got me thinking about what card Noa would probably be#i think Seven of Swords would be right up her alley#because it's associated with deception. dishonesty. betrayal. and acting strategically#and it could also signify self-deception and confessions. which is all very true for her character#aaahh now i wanna make a tarot card design for her!#but that's an idea for another day#anyway sorry for sorta rambling a bit#i hope you all are doing okay
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potentially batshit headcanon, but i think it'd be funny if these two were related somehow.
#i'm inclined to say they're cousins but it'd also be interesting if they were siblings ngl#gustafa hasn't really brought up his own upbringing so far in my playthrough so i'm running hogwild w/ his backstory#i hc that gustafa's parents were classical musicians and pretty strict (very much the types to force what they think is best on their kids)#he felt like the environment was too stifling not only for his music but also his spirit so he left home as soon as he could#he's still proud about his family's history as musicians but definitely doesn't want to raise his kids like his parents raised him#so that's why he's pretty laid back when it comes to raising bea and encourages whatever she loves doing no matter what#wait now that i think about it carter organizes the music festival in mineral town doesn't he?#shit i'm connecting the dots#carter would probably be older than gustafa so i guess he left home as soon as possible too#he just went the route of joining the clergy to get out of town rather than becoming a hippie like gus#imagine going to the next town over to check out their music festival only to be reunited w/ your estranged older bro >>>#you haven't spoken to in like 10+ years#i feel like they'd be okay terms tho they'd definitely bond over how shitty their parents were#okay i'm having fun w/ this headcanon i'm gonna keep it i think#story of seasons#bokujou monogatari#a wonderful life#friends of mineral town#sos awl#sos fomt#sos gustafa#gustafa (awl)#sos carter#carter (fomt)#hc : (sos) awl / fomt#mj.txt
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— no matter how hard you try, forgiveness isn't a death and you can't bury this while it's alive
#mine#writers of tumblr#poetry#spilled ink#writing#okay to rb#poem#spilled words#tw: sh#wrote this after the realisation about P#just another secret for me to choke down#i know i don't have to. i do know that#and now it's not just one brother. it's two. two that i'd have to hope and pray my mother could see for what they actually are#instead of what she wants them to be#and i just don't think she could ever do that#so what's the point in telling her?#i think i will tell her. one day. for me though not for her#so that i can see her clearly for who she is when it matters most#but it's just so much to deal with#i've regressed so far. sh again. not eating. i'm pretty suicidal most days but not actively#i just need it all to stop#i just need my mum to save me for once but she never will#anyway#how's life for you?#how is 2024 treating you so far? i hope gently#hope you're sleeping okay#hope whatever pain you're carrying lifts this year
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favorite motogp rivalry not involving any of the aliens ?
you know, the fact that this is so tough shows just how inescapable they've been in the sport. still, I'll give it a shot
you can go several directions here - either stick to the present, or go for stuff this century that's more in the background, or go way way back. I'm reasonably fond of that eighties early nineties period and the varied rivalries they produced between all the anglos... you know, spencer, gardner, lawson, rainey, schwantz, doohan, that lot... (admittedly some haven't massively endeared themselves to me with their post-retirement punditry, but it is ever thus with athletes.) couldn't do that justice here but a few quickfire thoughts
lawson and gardner is one of those fun ones where you have two completely different blokes competing who just fundamentally Did Not Get Each Other at all. gardner was cocky, forthright, brash, whereas lawson was far more reserved, cool-headed, cerebral... and, of course, they didn't didn't just understand each other, they also didn't like each other at all. infamously gardner was not exactly thrilled when his long time rival was signed for honda (gardner's manufacturer) and gardner had to find out by reading the papers
also they shot this safety ad together and apparently didn't speak to each other the entire time, even though they were in close proximity for hours. don't you just desperately want to recreate this with certain riders, hm
anyway, of course there's also rainey and schwantz, probably the one everyone knows... as ever, important they didn't get on and hated to lose each other
all culminated in the dramatic 1993 season, with schwantz determined that it would finally be his year... and it's a classic season, one hears (even if one is unable to judge for oneself), but a title fight with a sad twist when a collision between the two of them at misano ends rainey's career while handing schwantz his only 500cc title. in the end, it also ended schwantz's career, who retired at the end of 1994. of course dorna promised they'd never go to misano again, which they stuck to for a full fourteen years
then again, arguably the vibes were a bit too good back then between riders, like what's all this then (from schwantz)
actually, I suppose none of those were technically 'motogp' rivalries, but. same difference. there's a few in the years after... I do find the whole 1998 250cc season deeply compelling, but it also would feel like cheating because what makes the harada/capirossi thing so fun is that valentino is there acting as the third man. very much the dynamics between all three of them that are so great. plenty of spats in the years after that, but something like dovi/iannone is more just good fun than a proper 'rivalry'. you do generally need some proper development for a real rivalry, and the aliens just monopolise so much attention this century. so you do basically have to fast forward to... well, the last few years, where the most notable ones have been pecco/fabio and pecco/jorge martin
now I do like pecco/fabio conceptually - it's interesting to have this rivalry between two guys who were being moulded into being the marc challengers by their respective manufacturers and then to have had marc suddenly disappear on them. the way it suddenly thrust fabio into the spotlight, how it put all these expectations and pressures on him and essentially made him title favourite overnight... vs how pecco is the closest motogp has had to a dominant force in the post prime!marc era and is constantly uneasily grappling with that legacy. you've got all this uncertainty and insecurity and asterisks and the shadow cast by the greats (who haven't even had the decency to go away completely), the weight of those legacies... also, two kinda funny title fights, if odd ones (especially '22 lol). main problem is that their wildly contrasting fortunes whenever they were title rivals mean they've managed to avoid actually fighting each other on-track. insanely frustrating and the real asterisk for this rivalry
pecco/martin has been strong stuff, yeah. super contrasting personalities, such visibly different riding styles, and considerably more material when it comes to on-track battles than pecco/fabio (still more work to be done though). that intra-manufacturer arc has been fun to follow, this stand-off between ducati's golden boy and the challenger with the eternal underdog mindset. both have a tendency to feel like the world's against them (which is a trait many riders share, sports is such a wonderful breeding ground for victimisation complexes), both are so incredibly unreliable. both rather volatile in their own ways, both battling their own insecurities. also, it doesn't hurt that they've got a bit of shared history as teammates back in the day. would've been interesting to see them as teammates in motogp, curious how jorge reacts to this latest twist... the needle between them has been fun, especially the silly valencia stuff, though I wouldn't mind some more openly hostilities between the pair of them - and I do feel like marc's reemergence has inevitably ensured the two of them are paying less attention to each other. even martin's grand big fuck ducati thing is now more about being rejected in favour of marc than about pecco getting preferential treatment. still, they've got time, could give us plenty more to work with
which is my favourite of those? I don't know... the tricky thing about the older rivalries is that I believe very strongly in evaluating rivalries by actually watching their competitive output and there's only so much of them I can watch. I guess by process of elimination it's currently pecco/martin? for a hot second there I suppose pecco/bez looked like it could be quite interesting, but they didn't really fight for the title and remained friendly so. whatever. it'd be nice if everyone else picked up the slack some time soon
#i do think the aliens and in particular valentino have set the bar extremely high as far as rivalries go#and my basic stance is it's okay if we never get back to those heights. i mean those were so fucking good u can't be greedy#they invented a guy who cooked up five completely distinct and independently fascinating feuds like?? crazy effort#makes you reevaluate pretty much every other sport makes you think about how much everyone else has been slacking#the new stuff you just have to play by ear and try to enjoy what you get... ofc if anybody wants to go back to the good old days#i'm certainly not gonna complain. but for various reasons i doubt we'll get something quite that good again lol#marc still owes me something kinda nasty i reckon but u should always be ready for disappointment#brr brr#motogp#//#batsplat responds
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If you've never heard an LRAD go off in person, I *genuinely* do not want to hear your opinion about methods of resistance in the US.
#i'm so fucking sick#wifey and i are pretty sure we got COVID so we've been isolating and trying to stay well#this is now at least my 2nd infection though#and you can tell too#wifey has been having trouble keeping me fed and hydrated and CONSCIOUS because I'm so tired I can barely function#this is despite sleeping for 12 hrs a day the past two days#and being fully medicated (or as fully medicated as I can be)#and on top of that my hypotension has been acting up severely since getting sick and I can barely walk 10ft b4 losing consciousness#i've haven't started throwing up my food and water yet but I've come pretty close especially early in the morning#anyway the point is that I am like. visibly being hit with an autoimmune aggravator not just a normal cold#and unfortunately#I'm taking it harder this time than the last#wifey is doing okay and mostly experienced it as a headcold with severe fatigue#she's pretty much better now a week or so out from starting to show symptoms#we....don't like when she gets hit that hard tho because it usually means I'm about to get bodied#pattern is holding so far regrettably lmao#anyway#my point is that I'm sick and angry and grieving and I really want to hit something or set it on fire#but i can't because i can barely move or even stay awake#and this is literally all my personal hell#as a result i am finding that I have a uhhhhhhhhhh unreasonably low threshhold for irritation recently
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oooh. there's a trans woman in this Night Court episode and I'm scared.
#they do the 'man in a dress' joke literally all the time. that's already bad enough#but. so far they've handled similar topics really well (at least for it being the 80s) sooo... maybe it'll be okay? 😬 I'm still scared tho#and of course it's a Dan episode because he's the horrible shitty one.#oh god please don't be a horrible episode please I can't handle that right now 🙃#night court#she has beaten Dan up. I love her. she's great. and they are showing him clearly in the wrong. so... pretty good so far#(but of course 'haha he got hit by a woman'... I mean. yeah but. you don't have to be misogynistic about it...)#oh Dan is the absolute worst and I don't mean it in a nice way this time 😔
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chapter 1 + chapter 2... halfway to 60k
#a little over halfway really#I'd begun to worry about my progress but when I put it this way I feel pretty proud of myself#the crazy part... is that I'm still not even close to done.... ahahaha#okay. chapter one is pretty much done#I've edited all the major portions I wanted to change#just a small editing session and she'll be ready to post#as for the second chapter#I'm about a third of the way through with editing the smut#after the halfway point the word count will start exploding because there's a ridiculous amount of editing I have to do#what I have written so far for the second part is more of an outline than anything else#and then of course there's the whole ending portion#I think over 60k in total word count is 100% happening#70k next? haha... ahaha..... ha..........#laughing through the pain#(I wake up from a deep coma after producing 70 thousand words of aki sex) where....... where... am I.......#let's reach the editing halfway point by the end of this week!! I can do it!!!!
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i do feel a little guilty saying this because for so many reasons tonight wasn't really the best night for people. but that being my first party honestly was fucking awesome and i would absolutely hit up a party again. i was very sober and had a goddamn blast.
#i do get very like protective want to clean up instinct but i only made it so far before i was like. i'm leaving this for the hosts fuck it#but i folded their blankets up nicely and refilled their brita . i am a very kind soul#today was just good despite the fact that it was awful and kind of sucked also#like the big major friend drama happened today plus like a lot of other shit but also. eventful day. lot of endorphins. i'm okay#and i look a little pretty. i don't feel that pretty. but i'm trying to
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thoughts on ming-hua x p'li??
Unfairly attractive OTP rare pair that deserve a lot more love than they get, what else can I say?
#I forgot about this ask sorry#once it goes too far down my notifications list my 'out of sight out of mind' script kicks in#I don't do it on purpose I just have the object permanence of a newborn#or perhaps a cat#but anyway. yes. Ming'Li#I actually once made a catradora edit for them#must have been sometime in 2021 or so. maybe a bit earlier idk#I'm just as obsessed with them as with the main RL pairings. in fact just know that the RL are a polycule#I'm pretty sure I can recite every fic about them on Ao3 from memory#you should have heard the screaming when Kat wrote a fic about them in 2021...#I once started writing one too but it's long since been deleted and I'm not willing to try again#I'd rather not write at all tbh but sometimes I just Have To for events and such#especially when drawing refuses to cooperate#I'm working on the remaining sapphic week prompts I promise#okay I got off topic again#Kat has actually been indulging me with this ship a little recently#would be more than a little if somebODY ACTUALLY FINISHED HER SNIPPETS FOR ONCE#I know. I know. I'm one to talk#I'm making progress on the qader/daneli one I swear. I'm hoping to finish it tomorrow when I get back from grandma's#this week was A Lot#and it just doesn't get any easier does it...
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I've got the first expression challenge sketched out and lemme tell y'all
I still fuckin got it lmAO
#text post#it's been over a year since I've drawn anything#and even then I was drawing regular-degular human characters so it's been even longer since I've drawn a robot of any kind#basically since my last art post on this blog so since 2020 lmfAO#so I was a little nervous that I'd have to struggle to learn it all over again but nah#I'm not just okay with what I've got so far- I'm actually happy with it which feels pretty fuckin good#my relationship with art for the past *checks watch* decade#has just been me sinking into a tar pit of despair and feeling like I'm done forever and don't even like drawing for myself anymore#with an occasional moment where I breach the surface and get some air again like “oh wait I do still like doing this actually”#and I cherish those moments lmAO it's so not over and we are in fact so back
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